Alrighty, here comes a hefty hefty update.

Most importantly- had a major debate paper on bushmeat due over the weekend. Got it back today, with a 95% and a note from the TA saying it was one of the best papers he graded, and it was an excellent scholarly paper AND IT WAS A PLEASURE TO READ. Which is saying something, I think, because it was a paper about bushmeat.. O.o Also, got my first essay back for my global health history class, 47/50! Another A. I'm very pleased, especially since the average was an 81%.

Have sort of made a new friend in Animal Phys, which is shocking. Actually, my debate partner in my other global health class and I have been friendly, too. It's beyond weird.

Haven't been riding for the last two/three weeks. First tests and papers really killed me, but I think things have turned out alright. I cantered Ruffian for the first time in a long time.. last time I went. Can't quite remember if I've said that. I forgot how fun it is! I'd much rather try cantering than constantly fail at the trot.

Lisa went to Hawaii last week, I won't see her again until next week. I miss her incredibly so. I know I only saw her once a week, and I've technically not seen her for two, but she's a steadying presence for me. Knowing I get to work and talk with her honestly helps me deal with everything. I could text her, but I want her to enjoy her vacation. I can't think of anyone who deserves it more, after how the last year has been. I'm being selfish. I've been really stressed out the past week and a half and I miss her.

My cousin had surgery on Friday to remove her pineal cyst. I went to the hospital with my parents after work, I can't tell you how awkward it was. It was the first time I'd seen my ex-aunt since before she left for her father's funeral ... three years ago? Right before this huge mess started. Anyway, I visited with V for a few min and while she alright, considering. Met her boyfriend and the mom's teaching assistant. Tried to be nice for my uncle's sake.. but I love the woman's comment about how V's headaches have been so hard for V and her mom. Because apparently my uncle doesn't give a damn. Talked with Nick, that was nice. He's been doing applications for pharm school, which I'm super excited to hear about. I really hope he gets what he wants- I'm pretty sure that's New York. I think it'd be great for him! I know he's concerned about money, and it's good he's considering the frugality; but I'm desperately of a mind that when you want something, you go after it and grab it. Maybe make out with it and make babies, too..! Ha. Castle..

Anyway, V got pneumonia the day after her surgery, and then she had other complications I can't correctly recall.. but was discharged two days ago, went to the ER last night because her stitches came out. Oh, right! Her spinal fluid was leaking and pooling in the wrong places, so they had to drain and repair.. THOSE were the stitches that came out. Commence vomiting and sickness. anyway, she's back home again, as far as I know, recuperating. For everyone's sake, I hope this fixes her headaches. It is a hellish road to travel just to get out of school and responsibility.

I have to work with Lori again tomorrow. Roy got a hold of my old rx bottle and I was afraid it was the one I just brought home on Monday with a full rx. I was going to cry because I thought I wouldn't be able to handle her without it. Luckily, full bottle is still safe and in tact. I really hate working with her. I feel so bad, but she drives me crazy and makes me so anxious. Thank heavens for the boys I work with. They always try to make Friday nights easier when Lisa's gone. She drives everyone crazy.

I've stopped going to the gym. I don't like it, but my eating sched and appetite are so screwed thanks to my classes. I just don't think it's metabolically affordable to eat a granola bar and fruity snacks and then one big meal at night and go running/cycling/elliptical for an hour every day. I go home most Tues/Thurs with a splitting head. I wake up most mornings ridiculously white. So naturally, I'm deciding to skip Calc class, which is conveniently in the middle of all my classes, to have lunch and let my brain have a breather. We'll see how it works out o.o

I'm finally realizing how very happy I am to be alone- not that I was unhappy at being alone. But you know, fangirl and all. I want that tv crap. But the more I think about it, the more I don't. Because I'm sure (and always have been) I couldn't handle it mentally or emotionally, and it just doesn't matter. There are more important things.

The irony is, this afternoon I talked about being so content with being alone, and tonight the bartender from PF Changs text me. Did I ever mention him? Weeks ago, Ashley and I went to PF Changs and he gave me receipt paper to doodle on and said he'd save it forever and I should come back. Not sure if he did, but I guess he did? I left my number on the scrap in roman numerals. He also shared a couple fortune cookies, playing the 'in bed' game. My first one was so bad (good things come in small packages... in bed) he said he couldn't let me leave without a better one. It was cute. And the reason I didn't leave my arabic numerals was because I thought he was just being a bartender. Anyway. Curious how he figured it out. I text him back a half hour ago or whatever. Haven't heard back. We'll see what happens =\ I am honestly hoping for nothing. Ugh.

Also, been going to this coffee shop- love it so much! Cartel Coffee Lab. Delicious. Sometimes makes my stomach unhappy, but I'll live. Delicious lattes and hot chocolate, and nom-worthy cookies. Not the greatest study environment, depending, but it's perfect mostly.